Hard Fought Defeat Leftovers

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So these leftovers come with a bit of an asterisk.

 

My original version of Hard Fought Defeat isn’t the one that appears on the main site. When initially finishing the group of lyrics, there were 14 things that made the cut. It wasn’t until prepping them for this website that I realized it was too much and hurt the overall quality as a result.

 

So if you think that two of these leftovers stick out from the rest, it’s because they do. Made Of Glass and Amputees were both in the middle of the original version of Hard Fought Defeat. Taking them out helped the group a lot, even though I think they’re both good (I’m especially partial to Made Of Glass actually.)

 

When it comes to the rest, these leftovers show that the main group of lyrics could’ve been a lot darker. I was working through some heavy emotions after my dad passed away and didn’t know how to express them at first. It resulted in some experimentation, leading to Something Different and In My Dreams specifically. I think they’re both really good in a unique way but just didn’t fit the direction everything else ended up taking.

 

Pavement is a bit dark too but was actually carried over from Bloodhounds. It’s something I attempted to use on For Those Left Behind and Nocturnal but just never came together. In the end, a chunk of it was lifted and transplanted into Followers, which appears on the latter. Embrace The Light was written during these sessions and attempted again for the next group of lyrics but didn’t feel strong enough to include on either.

 

Looking back, I don’t regret leaving these behind. Either they didn’t fit or just weren’t strong enough for inclusion.

 

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01. Pavement

02. Made Of Glass

03. Something Different

04. Embrace The Light

05. In My Dreams

06. Amputees

 

Pavement

 

Been cracking my skull on the pavement

I still don’t know how to behave but maybe

Everybody always needs saving

Asking all the questions, have you seen me lately?

Have you seen me lately?

 

Wasted every breath on the answer

Spreading like a cancer that thrives on impact

Chilled down to the bones in my body

It’s getting so hot that I can’t see the abstract

I can’t see the abstract

 

Now I’m calling to the great beyond

Staying up past midnight ’til the morning dawns

Holding onto nothing but I can’t go wrong

I can’t go wrong, I can’t go wrong

 

Burned all the witches in the attic

It sounds so dramatic but I’ve gone brainsick

Everyone’s trying to digest this

Prophetic as it seems, have you seen the pavement?

Have you seen the pavement?

 

Now I’m calling to the great beyond

Staying up past midnight ’til the morning dawns

Holding onto nothing but I can’t go wrong

I can’t go wrong, I can’t go wrong

 

Now they’re watching from the great unknown

Gonna come down on me if they don’t like what they’re shown

Trapped in my seclusion but I can’t let go

I can’t let go, oh no

 

Faced every demon in the closet

Thought I bought the farm but it’s all so measured

Every last vacant conversation

Heading to the pavement but it’s been my pleasure

Well it’s been my pleasure

 

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Made Of Glass

 

I’m not sure what you’ve been told

But now you stare and won’t approach

Why deny what I’ve been through?

When I don’t owe a thing to you

 

Everybody runs when they see me coming down the aisle

Afraid that there’s a waterfall hiding right behind this smile

 

Am I made of glass, can you see straight through me?

Will I fall to pieces if you say my name?

I’m tired of watching people as they walk on eggshells

Convinced I’m damaged goods when I’m still the same

 

Well I don’t need someone to blame

By now I’ve realized that silence works both ways

 

I don’t know what you have heard

But now it seems you’re lost for words

Fake concern and then explain

Why these thoughts sound so profane

 

Everybody turns when they hear me walking down the hall

No one wants to deal with the grief that much at all

 

Am I made of glass, can you see straight through me?

Will I fall to pieces if you say my name?

I’m tired of watching people as they walk on eggshells

Convinced they share my story when it’s not the same

 

I still don’t need someone to blame

By now I’ve realized this silence works both ways

 

Take off these kid gloves, I don’t need your sympathy

I know you’re not sure what to say

If you walked a country mile inside my shoes

You’d understand and then acknowledge why

It’s useless to complain

 

Am I made of glass, can you see straight through me?

Will I fall to pieces if you say my name?

I’m tired of all these people as they walk on eggshells

Convinced they share my story when it’s not the same

 

I still don’t need someone to blame

By now I know that it’s too late

 

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Something Different

 

Sleep until the sun sets, stay up in the darkness

Count down every second falling off the clock face

Still there’s no escape, there’s never an escape

Now I can’t see a thing and I don’t want to… anyway

 

Can’t find motivation, some might call me faithless

Stranger ’til your weightless, chasing down some white noise

Still it’s not a choice, it never was a choice

Now I can’t feel a thing but I will always… be destroyed

 

I’ve had so many dreams where this death was a mistake

All to wake and find our time already spent

There used to be a day I would put up such resistance

While now I wish that this was something different

 

Now I wish that this was something different

Now I wish that this was something different

 

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Embrace The Light

 

While drifting out in shadows

Watching life just pass you by

Since the day your heart was broken

You’ve refused to go outside

 

I don’t have all the answers

But I think that you should know

You can’t sleep away your sadness

And expect it to let go

 

It’s sink or swim, so get up and fight

Look past this poison rain tonight

One for all, we all recite

Now come back down, embrace the light

 

You’re living life in anger

Where no consequence resides

Coming down from all resistance

In the answers you’ve denied

 

Since no one else escapes it

In the end we’re not immune

You can’t change the deal you’re handed

Killing time in a cocoon

 

It’s sink or swim, so get up and fight

Look past this poison rain tonight

One for all, we all recite

Now come back down, embrace the light

Come back down, embrace the light

 

Both my wings burn in the sun

Something like Icarus, nothing but a hypocrite

While this life can’t be undone

Especially when we’re living it, never when we’re finished it

Never when we’re finished it

 

Never when we’re finished it

It’s time to get rid of this now

 

It’s sink or swim, so get up and fight

Look past this poison rain tonight

One for all, we all recite

Now come back down, embrace the light

Come back down, embrace the light

 

Come back down, embrace the light

Come back down, we’ll all burn bright

 

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In My Dreams

 

Real world coming down

Trapped inside my head

I’m trapped inside a nightmare

Made to tell you that you’re dead

 

I wish I could stay sleeping

To touch you once again

Pretend that it’s reality

As reality sets in

 

How do we define what we’ve become?

I don’t want to wake up, I don’t want to wake up

 

Heaven coming down

Stuck on my two feet

I’m stuck inside myself again

As this kingdom come repeats

 

It’s harder to stay sleeping

So now I’m wide awake

Pretending we’re invincible

It’s a lie that I’ll re-trace

 

How can we rely on what’s to come?

I wish that you would wake up, I wish that you would wake up

 

Screaming out from both my burning lungs

It’s only in my dreams, it’s only in my dreams after all

 

It’s only in my dreams, it’s only in my dreams after all

It’s only in my dreams, it’s only in my dreams

 

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Amputees

 

The right hand’s been cut off

The writing’s on the wall but I can’t read it

No I can’t see it anymore

 

We’ve stormed the castle halls

Not ready for the fall, now we’re depleted

We’ll lie defeated on the floor

 

While heaven sent our sacraments, I’ll let these two dice roll

We can’t begin from where we’ve been until the last bell tolls

 

All amputees

We’ll come again, you’ll see

On bended knees, we’ll all profess

 

The right hand lands on green

The writing’s so pristine that I feel envy

Now I feel envy for these words

 

It’s strange to walk the streets

Restrained in our defeat, we’re such a lost cause

We’ll never follow the absurd

 

While heaven bound straight from the ground, , I guess I’ll let it ride

We can’t exist and then dismiss the ones we’ll leave behind

 

All amputees

We’ll come again, you’ll see

On bended knees, we’ll all profess

 

Confessions moving past

As each prophecy’s fulfilled

Self-involvement only dictates

When the patient get too ill

 

Longing for connection

But the nerves have been decayed

Now we’re digging for some diamonds

On our last remaining days

 

What can I say?

What can I say?

 

All amputees

We’ll come again, you’ll see

On bended knees, we’ll all profess

We’ll all profess

 

All amputees

Will one day be complete

On bended knees, we’ll all profess

We’ll all profess

 

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