For Those Left Behind

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Intended as a place for some leftovers from Hard Fought Defeat, these lyrics soon took on a life of their own.

 

Although I’d always planned to create a two part grouping, it didn’t quite go as expected. Originally, Hard Fought Defeat was called From Reactions To Reflections and this was supposed to be titled From Reflections To Reactions. The former would’ve been reactionary lyrics following my dad’s passing and this grouping would’ve been more meditative.

 

Even though that idea was scrapped, I still had several things that got cut from Hard Fought Defeat. As such, my new plan was to create a companion piece that would feature those lyrics. Some of them were among my favourites so I wanted them to be viewed on the same level. Unfortunately, I didn’t have enough lyrics to create a new grouping on its own. Because of this, more writing had to be done.

 

From there, it quickly became obvious that the new stuff was better than most of the leftovers. A new theme also emerged as I moved beyond the grieving process. Some lyrics still touched upon the aftermath of that situation, but inspiration started coming from other sources. A big refugee crisis began taking shape and those conversations influenced the direction this grouping took as well.

 

In the end, only three things from past projects made the cut: Respirator and North Star came from the Hard Fought Defeat writing sessions and Breeding was written during the Bloodhounds era. Instead of focusing on grieving, these lyrics are more about those who get left behind. It’s a subtle difference but opens things up since that doesn’t just refer to death. I mean, people get left behind for many reasons: Relationships, politics, racism, poverty, inequality, simple inattention, etc.

 

In my mind, this still serves as a companion piece to Hard Fought Defeat though. It works fine on its own, but you get a more complete picture having read both. For Those Left Behind was finished less than a year after the previous grouping so despite being an evolution, they still share some DNA. Looking at these now, I’d say my favourites are Back Of My Mind, Respirator, Living Photographs and Set This Down.

 

For those interested, the original version is available in the Fireteddy National Library. You can also check out what didn’t make the cut here.

 

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01. What’s Happening?

02. It’s All Relative

03. Breeding

04. Back Of My Mind

05. Respirator

06. Living Photographs

07. Beneath Your Skin

08. Morning Train

09. Set This Down

10. North Star

 

What’s Happening?

 

So many pills for me to take

Now I can’t even keep them straight

In blissful sleep, I’m wide awake

My padded cell to contemplate

 

Biting down, it terraforms

I’ve punch the walls and slammed the doors

With bloodshot eyes, so battle torn

When all is fair in love and war

 

All is fair in love and war

I’ve got some static in my head

I can’t remember what you said

Along with every heart that bled

Every heart that…

 

On and on, we’ll always sing

Deceptive songs for useless things

From dusk to dawn, through fall and spring

Now I can’t see what’s happening

I still can’t see what’s happening

 

Chase this down to spread the blame

Reborn to fight another day

You’re close enough to touch the flames

As friendly fire all fades away

 

While nothing matters much to you

Still Blind in love for this abuse

With steady hands, I’ll see it through

But now I can’t deny the truth

Now I can’t deny the truth

 

I’ve got some static in my head

I can’t remember what you said

Along with every heart that bled

Every heart that…

 

On and on, we’ll always sing

Deceptive songs for useless things

From dusk to dawn, through fall and spring

Now I can’t see what’s happening

I still can’t see what’s happening

 

Looking back to find our way

Reflecting on what can’t be saved

Some hearts enslaved to one that’s left behind

 

Searching hard for better days

They’ve been replaced to rest in wait

We’ll all depart and then get lost in time

We’ll all depart and then get lost in time

 

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It’s All Relative

 

I was walking past your street, staring down at my feet

Wondering where the hell our future had gone

It was there until you left, so discreet in your theft

When no one else could see that something was wrong

 

I tried to play along for a little while

Tried to play along but we were out of style

So trapped in this denial, our focus stalled

 

Well I’ve got problems, we’ve all got problems

But it’s all relative, it’s all relative

 

I’ve got problems, we’ll never solve them

But it’s all relative, it’s all relative now

 

In the corners of my mind, they were all well-defined

So many issues that we couldn’t contain

With every passing regret, made discreet when you left

Now all these little worries seem so mundane

 

I thought you went insane but could comprehend

Thought you went insane although it still depends

So trapped inside this trend, our focus strays

 

Well I’ve got problems, we’ve all got problems

But it’s all relative, it’s all relative

 

I’ve got problems, we’ll never solve them

But it’s all relative, it’s all relative now

 

It’s like how I was obsessive with Karen

Now I barely think about her at all

I cannot remember when we last spoke

But somehow I think I’m better off

Somehow I think I’m better off

 

Well I’ve got problems, I’ve still got problems

But it’s all relative, it’s all relative

 

I’ve got problems, we’ve still got problems

But it’s all relative, it’s all relative now

 

Well it’s all relative, It’s all relative now

It’s all relative now

 

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Breeding

 

Rewind, repeat, it stumbles through again

Find some solid ground to try and start where it all ends

Faulty wires get crossed, you know I’m really at a loss

To find a reason here that you might comprehend

Behaviours shown that I just can’t defend

 

When every failure seems to have a motive

Agendas that won’t shake off from the rest

 

What does it matter? What does it matter?

It’s breeding every vagueness to digest

 

Eject, move past, rewriting what’s been claimed

Try to get some footing from these months gone unexplained

Roads still intersect, I guess it’s easy to expect

When everybody here has secrets to maintain

Another little truth gone up in flames

 

It isn’t that I think this life looks better

But all these doubts keep crashing by in waves

 

What does it matter? What does it matter?

It’s breeding every sickness to convey

 

I can’t explain it

Although I’ve tried

As every mystery comes apart

We’ve fail to see both sides

 

Beneath this moonlight

From burning skies

When every star comes crashing down

We’ll meet our own demise

 

What does it matter? What does it matter?

It’s breeding every word to say goodbye

 

What does it matter? What does it matter?

With every little whisper to imply

It’s breeding every word to say goodbye

 

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Back Of My Mind

 

I’ve tried to live in silent thought

But there’s no shelter made for this

When peace makes you the crazy one

Can we ever coexist?

 

Beyond what still divides us

There must lie a common thread

With clarity in worship lost

We’re all headed for shipwreck

 

Something screams in the back of my mind

It calls my name but isn’t defined

Somewhere now in the back of my mind it says…

 

If I can’t fight the ones I love

I’ll be fighting with myself

As conflict washes over me

Still contained in living hell

 

Where every word keeps scratching

Climbing walls inside my head

I’ve done my best to silence them

While regretting what I said

 

Something screams in the back of my mind

It calls my name but isn’t defined

Somewhere now in the back of my mind there’s dread

 

Give me a sign, give me a sign

Give me a sign once again

 

Give me a sign, give me a sign

Give me a sign you’re listenin’

 

Everybody knows, but they don’t wanna see

Now I don’t have a choice of what’s in front of me

 

Something screams in the back of my mind

It calls my name but isn’t defined

Something screams in the back of my mind

In the back of my mind, the back of my mind

 

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Respirator

 

I can’t even hear your voice

Machines begin to fill the void

As noises break the spaces in between

 

Counting down but it’s not you

There’s only so much we could do

Now misconstrued with thoughts still left unseen

 

I’m trying to exist, trying harder to resist

But holding on to every sound, it pulls me under as I drown

 

Now pushing air into your lungs

Until the time has finally come

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator

 

It takes me hostage in a place

In nightmares that I can’t erase

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

 

Grasping at some shreds of hope

While trying hard to stay afloat

For lifeboats that don’t ever seem to come

 

Sitting in this crowded room

We knew that you’d be leaving soon

In bloom to vacate what’s so cumbersome

 

We’re trying to exist, trying harder we insist

But holding on to where we’ve been, it keeps us lost and powerless

 

Now pushing air into your lungs

Until the time has finally come

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator

 

It takes me hostage in a place

In nightmares that I can’t erase

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

 

Now I’ve found myself a new disorder

Although it isn’t what I want

Tired and shaken as I go through my withdrawals

Expelling memories that you haunt

 

We’re trying to exist, trying harder to resist

But holding on to every sound, it pulls us under as we drown

 

Now pushing air into your lungs

Until the time has finally come

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator

 

It takes me hostage in a place

In nightmares that I can’t erase

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

 

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

 

I still hear the respirator…

 

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Living Photographs

 

Always speaking from a distance

I don’t wanna get too close

When the fire that’s in front of me

Keeps fuelling all these ghosts

 

Now we’re only living photographs

As we shine from coast to coast

I can’t say what hurts the most

No one knows what hurts the most

 

Coming through in foreign concepts

We can barely comprehend

You might call me an insomniac

But I guess it all depends

 

Now I’m taking living photographs

Writing letters left to send

Or at least I still pretend

Pre-deceased while on the mend

 

Our flashbulbs burn while we’re still here

So bathed in light for all these years

We’ll all come down and reappear

It’s only temporary

 

There has to be a monument for this

There has to be a space that we can’t miss

There has to be a monument for this

 

There has to be a monument for this

There has to be a space that we can’t miss

Why do we need a monument for this?

It’s only temporary

 

It’s only temporary

It’s only temporary

 

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Beneath Your Skin

 

Keep these words, so absurd

In your mind to be observed

Come apart from the dark

Find some light left in your heart

 

On the brink, prone to drink

Fading faster than you think

Let it go before you know

You can’t discern your friends and foes

 

Count these lives remaining

Raise your head as it sinks in

I don’t know where we’re going

I’ve learnt to take it on the chin

 

These months of hibernating

The more you say, the less you win

It’s still a mystery right now

But now it lies beneath your skin

 

Where were you my dear?

Somewhere far away from here

 

Well you can save your bitter tears

Because I’ve found some better fears

I sure as hell won’t waste these years on where we’ve been

 

Settle in, count your sins

Show your scars and then begin

Life conceals what isn’t real

So don’t ignore what it reveals

 

Count these days remaining

Raise your head as it sinks in

I don’t know where we’re going

I’ve learnt to take it on the chin

 

These months of hibernating

The more you say, the less you win

It’s all a mystery right now

But now it lies beneath your skin

 

Now it lies beneath your skin

Now it lies beneath your skin

 

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Morning Train

 

Waiting on memories to save and to send me

When I don’t even know all their names

To tell you the truth, I’ve been trying to get through

While still searching for someone to blame

 

Strewn across reason for what to believe in

As we try to appease our withdrawals

In time we’ll all find that we’re out of our minds

Winding up to accept and recall

 

I can hear the first morning train slowly leaving

Cutting through the fog as it glides through this town

In traction with terms that make us feel so uneasy

I’m wondering where you’ve been and when you’ll come back around

 

When will you come back down?

When will you come back down?

 

Wasting my nights on every wavering light

Though I hang on the stars to relate

With some seeming lost as they shoot straight across

Tangled up as we all meet our fate

 

Quietly fishing for something worth missing

It isn’t the end that we fear

All claiming in vain we’re not going insane

No one sees when they’ve all disappeared

 

I can hear the first morning train slowly leaving

Cutting through the fog as it glides through this town

In traction with terms that make us feel so uneasy

I’m wondering where you’ve been and when you’ll come back around

 

When will you come back down?

When will you come back down?

 

Both my wings burn in the sun

Something like Icarus, nothing but a hypocrite

While this life can’t be undone

Especially when we’re living it, never when we’re finished it

 

Never when we’re finished it

I’ve gotta get rid of this now

 

But when will you come back down?

When will you come back down?

 

When will you come back down?

When will you come back down?

 

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Set This Down

 

You can find so many things

That’ll catch you by surprise

From the moment that you wake up

Wipe the sleep back from your eyes

 

Now they’ll pick a space to conquer

Cut you up and then divide

It’s so easy to condemn but

We weren’t raised on compromise

 

Always torn apart

For everything we feel

You can’t guard your heart

By twisting some ideals

 

You can waste so many nights

On hunting monsters still unclaimed

Taking every last precaution

When there’s no one else to blame

 

While we hold such wounds to foster

Cut them out to be maintained

Feeding into every horror

Never showing some restraint

 

Always torn apart

For everything we feel

You can’t guard your heart

By twisting some ideals

 

Now it won’t be long

Before we’re underground

We have the targets wrong

It’s time to set this down

 

So defined by hatred

Now it’s bred from something less

But we can’t contain our anger

When it’s all a fucking mess

 

Looking back to find some answers

Little truths we won’t confess

It’s fear that keeps us trapped in this unrest

 

You can find so many things

That’ll catch you by surprise

Gotta wake up to the truth now

Wipe the sleep back from your eyes

 

Well they’ll choose a place to conquer

Cut you up and then divide

We’re all turning into monsters

Never raised on compromise

 

Always torn apart

For everything we feel

You can’t guard your heart

By twisting some ideals

 

Now it won’t be long

Before we’re underground

We have the targets wrong

It’s time to set this down

 

It’s time to set this down now

It’s time to set this down

 

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North Star

 

Sleep is so compelling

This life is overwhelming

Now I can’t even stay awake

Without thinking of you

 

Keeping up traditions

Some ghosts of superstition

They Echo through the hallways but

It’s all that I can do

 

So turn off all the lights, let this fire burn bright

Our memories aren’t extinguished now, they’ll shine throughout the night

With roles to be adorned, as new traditions form

I’m sure that you’re still watching out to see us through this storm

 

Don’t know where I’m going

So as the wind starts blowing

I’m looking for our north star now

To safely guide us home

 

While we’ve found subtraction

Through loss of interaction

From words that once were spoken down

I know we’re not alone

 

So turn off all the lights, let this fire burn bright

Our memories aren’t extinguished now, they’ll shine throughout the night

With roles to be adorned, as new traditions form

I’m sure that you’re still watching out to see us through this storm

 

I don’t have to burn a single photograph

To make a wish come true, well now that I have you

 

Lighting up the skies, the tears in all our eyes

I know that it defies all sense of logic

As we finally come alive

 

So turn off all the lights, let this fire burn bright

Our memories aren’t extinguished now, they’ll shine throughout the night

With roles to be adorned, as new traditions form

I’m sure that you’re still watching out to see us through this storm

 

I’m sure that you’re still watching out to see us through this storm

I know you’re always watching out to see us through the storm

 

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