Bloodhounds
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If you want to hear a tale about trying to run uphill against the wind, you’ve come to the right place.
After the debacle known as Synesthesia, the shit was on to follow it up with something really great. Unfortunately for me, I had no clue what that was. With my mind being pulled in a million different directions, it left me really scattered in terms of themes to explore. As crappy as it was, Synesthesia felt like the end of a chapter, so I definitely didn’t want to revisit what I’d already covered since In Times Of Transition.
That left me struggling and resulted in the longest gap between groupings to date. To be fair, 2010 had me doing a lot of work on my Seasons In Colour side project (now available in the library,) but still. Even taking that into consideration, it took me a good four years to finish these lyrics. Some of that is because of the aforementioned issues and the rest is due to the worst writer’s block I’ve ever had.
Given this, it’s no surprise the grouping isn’t very cohesive. Skimming through everything I wrote during this period, every idea imaginable was explored and scrutinized with several unreleased versions. It’s a wonder that I managed to put anything together at all really. (Trust me, there were points where I considered scrapping the project and just carrying some things over to a different concept.)
In the end, I’d say the thing that pulls it all together is the fact that nothing does. I don’t think these lyrics have any theme that connects them all. It results in a feeling of chaos and that represents my life at the time. A sense of looking over your shoulder and wondering who you can trust also runs throughout everything so I guess there’s that. During these four years, I got engaged, married, lost my dad and dealt with the changing dynamics of several relationships. That’s a lot to cover in a grouping of 10 things.
Despite the scattered nature of how they came about, I have many favourites from these lyrics. Those include Paranoid Thoughts, Rambling Man And The Holy Ghost, End Of Days, Little Daggers, Life On Sundays and Bloodhounds. Waiting Alone (Haley’s Song) and Untitled were both finished right after my dad died, the latter being written in the morning before his wake. As a result, those two things hinted towards what to expect from Hard Fought Defeat, which would be sent into the wild a year later.
(On an unrelated note, I really wish I’d used Paranoid Thoughts and Rambling Man And The Holy Ghost to inform the rest of this grouping. The former was written late in the process, but man… those two things feel really fresh when revisiting it now.)
For those interested, you can find the original version of these lyrics in the Fireteddy National Library. Be sure to check out some stuff that didn’t make the cut here as well.
Lyrics Content
02. Rambling Man And The Holy Ghost
03. Survive Or Burn
04. Waiting Alone (Haley’s Song)
05. End Of Days
06. Untitled
07. Little Daggers
08. Life On Sundays
09. Every Measure
10. Bloodhounds
Paranoid Thoughts
Baby can you feel it coming?
Is it shaking down through your bones?
A melody you can’t stop humming
Destruction in the strangest tones
Nothing really makes it better
When every day’s an open wound
It’s relative to what you’d weather
But the final part’s out of tune
Paranoid thoughts little child, little child
Paranoid thoughts take awhile, take awhile
Paranoid thoughts little child, little child
Gonna be gone for awhile, for awhile now
Darling can you hear the sirens?
Do they wake you when you’re trying to sleep?
Loyalty directives in your wiring
A promise that you couldn’t keep
Nothing here will lead to reason
Enlightenment or true beliefs
Not everyone can purge their demons
In fact it’s looking pretty bleak
Paranoid thoughts little child, little child
Paranoid thoughts take awhile, take awhile
Paranoid thoughts little child, little child
Gonna be gone for awhile, for awhile now
One two three, won’t you look at me?
Won’t you look at me? Won’t you look at me?
Four five six, what a lovely trick
What a lovely trick, now it makes me sick
Choking down the apathy, it isn’t what we have to be
Now, now, now, now, now!
Paranoid thoughts little child, little child
Paranoid thoughts take awhile, take awhile now
Paranoid thoughts little child, little child
Gonna be gone for awhile, for awhile
Gonna be gone for awhile, for awhile
Gonna be gone for awhile, for awhile
Rambling Man And The Holy Ghost
Points to the one who can talk the most
Like a rambling man to the holy ghost
Looking for some answers underneath the trash
When everybody hides what they refuse to ask
Find all the terms in the third degree
Gonna burn, gonna burn in hypocrisy
Sheltered in a bunker from a dying star
Like the flames and the wreckage of a burning car
So round up everybody, try to tell them where to go
You know it’s all the same to me, it’s just another tragedy
It isn’t all that different, gonna hang off the resistance
From this distance you can see, it’s just another tragedy
Cheers to the one who can smile the best
With a black heart hidden in an armoured chest
Searching for some beauty underneath the dirt
When everyone knows who they refuse to hurt
Watch as the fear trickles through to breed
Gonna drown, gonna drown in some new disease
Shaking in the closet from the great beyond
With some bones and the ashes of a useless con
So round up everybody, try to tell them where to go
You know it’s all the same to me, it’s just another tragedy
It isn’t all that different, gonna hang off the resistance
From this distance you can see, it’s just another tragedy
Don’t go leaving me, don’t go leaving me now
Don’t go leaving me, don’t go leaving me buried underneath the ground
Rambling man, it’s like a rambling man
A rambling man and the holy ghost
Rambling man, it’s like a rambling man
So tell me rambling man, what do you fear the most?
Survive Or Burn
From my seclusion now I’ll gladly let you in
You want some more, kick down the door and let’s begin
I swear I’m not a fraud and you won’t break my skin
It’s not ideal although I feel it wearing thin
So as the wheels all turn, I’ll survive or burn again
As the wheels all turn, I’ll survive or burn again
Well now you’ve made it in, don’t question my beliefs
The mirror adheres to what I’m sure you thought you’d see
As sunlight flickers through with mock sincerity
I’m oddly grounded by the thought of this release
So as the wheels all turn, I’ll survive or burn again
As the wheels all turn, I’ll survive or burn again
You know it’s true, this world’s a pretty fucked up place
And I’ll see more before my dying breath escapes
Until the time I find my final resting place
Nobody else will get to compromise my fate
Waiting Alone (Haley’s Song)
Are you asleep?
Or trying to find the words to explain
A practice to keep
Keep me from slowly going insane
In trying to find this, I won’t falter behind it again
When coming to grips with the noose as it slips
I can see that it’s not sinking in
Make your way if I can’t reach you
But don’t pause to stay when we’re beneath you
Wait to play, you’re always running for home
Can you respond?
With numbers to blink for yes or no
I’ll Move right along
Looking for signs of life as I go
While stopping to seize it, I could never believe how it ends
In coming to terms with each lesson we’ve learned
I’ll return when I’ve slowed my descent
Make your way if I can’t reach you
But don’t pause to stay when we’re beneath you
Wait to play, you’re always running for home
Crash and burn, if you don’t want to
But you’ll soon discern the ghosts that haunt you
As these seasons turn, I’m always waiting alone
Waking up and taking off, baby
Watching every inhibition slowly coming down
I’m pretty sure that everyone’s gone crazy
Trying to make it through Until we find some solid ground
Now there’s no one left around
Well there’s no one left around
Make your way if I can’t reach you
But don’t pause to stay when we’re beneath you
Wait to play, you’re always running for home
Crash and burn, if you don’t want to
But you’ll soon discern the ghosts that haunt you
As these seasons turn, I’m always waiting alone
I’m always waiting
Crash and burn, crash and burn
Crash and burn, I’m always waiting alone
I’m always waiting alone
End Of Days
I’ve been living in a land of confusion
And now it’s feeling like the end of days
We try so hard not to change this image
But it’s our efforts that get in the way
I’ve grown so tired of reflecting on it
While on and on it goes
Still wasting time on avoiding these battles
And when we fail, then it all comes to blows
I’ve been trying to calm my beating heart
But now it’s come apart at the seams
So somewhere lost inside this war of words
Are the most absurd casualties
When the sun settles in for the evening
Do you spend your time counting the ways
Every instance you could never make sense of
Or are you going through another phase?
I get so tired of reflecting on it
While on and on it goes
We spend our time with these useless questions
But in the end, we’re still all alone
Won’t you come and calm my beating heart?
Because it’s come apart at the seams
Now somewhere lost inside this war of words
Are the most absurd casualties
You say your life has finally landed
So now it’s mine twisting up in the air
It feels exactly like the worst complication
Because I don’t seem to fit anywhere
I get so tired of reflecting on it
While on and on it goes
We spend our time always fighting these battles
And where it stops, well nobody knows
I’ve gotta work on a life worth living
A life worth living out
I’ve gotta work on a life worth living
It’s a life’s work living now
Untitled
Now I’m sitting down
Trying to find the words
Gotta let it out
Never to be heard
Voices in my head
Little bits to play
I swear I’m gonna turn this around someday
I swear I’m gonna turn this around someday
I don’t really know where I can find you
I don’t really know where I can go
I never want to go and undermine you
But I don’t really know where I can find you
Kicking up the dirt
Who will play the clown?
Waiting for some word
No one’s left around
Counting down the nights
Made to take what’s left
I swear I’m gonna outlive my regrets
I swear I’m gonna outlive my regrets
I don’t really know where I can find you
I don’t really know where I can go
I never want to go and undermine you
But I don’t really know where I can find you
In the morning, we’ll awake
I’ll try my best to still be brave
I can’t say what I’ll become
But I’ll try hard to carry on
I’ll make you proud, I’ll make you proud
Sleep dust in my eyes
I know you’re leaving soon
Beauty in disguise
Wrapped in a cocoon
Watching every move
With sunlight peaking down
I swear I’m gonna build on what I’ve found
I swear I’m gonna build on what I’ve found
I swear I’m gonna build on what I’ve found
I swear to God I’m going to make you proud
Little Daggers
Don’t lose your head on the things you can’t find
No time to waste now on worrying why
When gagged and bound, both feet tied to the floor
You can’t turn back to await your reward
Not sure what we’re expected to do
So we’ll watch as some thoughts get the better of you
Coming in hot, every weapon disarmed
A staggering smile that won’t do any harm
You’ve got a hole now, a hole in your heart
Headed for the light, neon signs in the dark
Throw away these little daggers that have ripped you apart
Can’t stop to guess every hint to conceive
It won’t make sense but in time you’ll proceed
If pushed to shove, from this loss of control
Throw on a smile and pretend you don’t know
Not sure what you’re expected to feel
So we’ll watch as your thoughts are unwound and revealed
Coming in hot, every weapon disarmed
A staggering smile that won’t do any harm
You’ve got a hole now, a hole in your heart
Headed for the light, neon signs in the dark
Throw away these little daggers that have ripped you apart
We all get lost sometimes
Searching so hard for the things we can’t find
We all get lost sometimes
Throw away these little daggers and come back to the light
We all get lost sometimes
Throw away these little daggers and come back to the light
Searching so hard for the things you can’t find
Throw away these little daggers and come back to the light
Life On Sundays
Baby’s got an answer, got an answer for the rest
Every bit of paranoia made to break down in protest
Living life on Sundays, so she always wears her best
But it’s more than I’ll digest, so much more than I’ll digest
Caught up in the masses, in the masses to ignore
Any sense of desperation from these grifters and the poor
Self-proclaimed a martyr, made a mission to adore
Never once to find the floor, now it never finds the floor
Life on Sundays to prevent, present all enemies as friends
Life on Sundays in contempt, resenting demons we can’t spin
Devil’s in the details, in the details we omit
Always fed by self-involvement here to call us hypocrites
Falsify an image while reality sets in
Can you tell me where it’s been? You can’t tell me where it’s been
Lovely words we pass along
Never once to say who’s right or wrong
Life on Sundays to prevent, present all enemies as friends
Life on Sundays in contempt, resenting demons we can’t spin
So now I’ve found a life worth living
Although I’m living life in sin
Tell me what the fuck’s the difference?
When we all end where we begin
Life on Sundays to prevent, present all enemies as friends
Life on Sundays in contempt, resenting demons we can’t spin
Life on Sundays to prevent, forget all enemies as friends
Life on Sundays in contempt, resenting games we’ll never win
Lovely words we pass along
Never once to say who’s right or wrong
Every Measure
We can’t watch as you do this again
Your covered face, veiled paper thin
No one knows when change is gonna come
But it’s finally sinking in
It’s finally sinking in
What exactly are you waiting for?
Stranger love, your heart’s adorned
Everybody knows it’s done but still
Do you have to wait until?
Do you have to wait…
Until I stop to meet you
Down the aisle to kneel half way
Now there’s nothing much to pray for
When there isn’t much to say
Now we all go away
Now we all go away
A perverted kind of pleasure
Coming down from every measure
You would take to set it straight
While disowning such confusion
For the rules of each exclusion
But I guess it’s in your fate
A perverted kind of pleasure
Coming down from every measure
From this circle made to break
While disowning such confusion
For the rules of each exclusion
So there’s no reason left to stay
There’s no reason left to stay
Bloodhounds
I’ve been failing in this failsafe
To claim a life with no false plans
You know that dealing in dishonesty
Can’t stain a hero’s bloody hands
So now make your heart a villain
If you can’t split yourself in two
Nickels and dimes for amateurs
Take this sword and run it through
Always headhunting for a reason
When there’s more ways to skin a cat
Preserving wounds to start your bleeding
But what’s respectable in that?
If fake thieves don’t steal their honour
Then for liars, there’s no end
All excuses trapped in cages
Beaten down since God knows when
Rising above it, though never explained
How simple solutions can go up in flames
With stars all exploding, we learnt how to pass the blame
I wish I could keep you locked up in this room
But you’d suffocate fast in your little cocoon
Dense in the head but I’ll come around someday soon
Deep in the woods, sounds pierce through the air
Cut down through the frost, every animal stares
We’re rabbits to bloodhounds, still trailing a scent
Brought up from these Burroughs, flushed out to repent
It’s not something I regret
I know exactly what I meant
It’s not something I regret
I know exactly what’s ahead
Pale as the moonlight, these years to confess
Bunkers for demons maintained in unrest
Wiping them clean when the past can make such a mess
Where you find smoke, a dragon breathes fire
Feeding it oxygen, the flames will burn higher
Wandering lost but I know how to spot a liar