Synesthesia

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And now for a group of lyrics that landed with a gigantic thud.

 

Back in 2009, I had an idea to recapture some of the feeling my lyrics had in 2001. While this isn’t inherently terrible, the way I went about it was. Wanting to get that throwback vibe going, I set about writing stuff with minimal edits. If something required too much work, it was scrapped before something else entered the mix. This would make it as raw as possible… or so I thought

 

It turns out I overlooked one crucial fact however. Those lyrics often came out as unfinished ideas that didn’t age well. As expected, Synesthesia didn’t fare any better. Compounding the issue, I realized upon completion that one thing in particular REALLY sucked. So not only do I have a grouping of things that weren’t fully fleshed out, one of these was plugged in to replace something else and sticks out like a sore thumb. (If you want to play a fun game, try figuring out which one it is!)

 

Thanks to some revisions before getting put up here, this isn’t as bad as it could’ve been. It’s still my least favourite grouping but comes across more as mediocre than straight up awful now. Writing started to overlap and take place right before my Seasons In Colour side project too, so you might notice some ideas that got shared with them if you sift through the library.

 

Surprisingly, I do have some favourites from these lyrics though. Those include Villain Of Circumstance, Moneymouths, Inside Your Head and Empty Spaces. By the way, synesthesia is a medical condition where you see shapes or colours when your brain is stimulated by music. I often get associative synesthesia where the sound of a song gets associated to a colour in my mind.

 

For those interested, you can check out the original version of these lyrics in the Fireteddy National Library. You can also find all the stuff that didn’t make the cut here.

 

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01. Vacant Minds

02. Villain Of Circumstance

03. Moneymouths

04. Inside Your Head

05. Empty Spaces

06. Life Or Death

07. Excuses

08. Pursuit Of Happiness

09. Abandon Ship!

10. Interventions

 

Vacant Minds

 

Been through so much that I can’t say

Covered mouths, we all get lost along the way

With bloodlines boiling through our veins

Don’t make a sound at all, it’s easy to explain

 

I’ve been asleep, it feels for years

Trapped inside this nightmare, as our dreams all disappeared

We’ve shot down angels for so much less

With feathered wings and all those things to fake what we digest

 

Forget those thoughts that you’ve confused

Now throw them back for something new

They never really made much sense to you

 

As all these reasons lay in place

Holding onto fear, they’re emotions we’ll forsake

Out going, yet so shy I know

A final sprint for home and then we’ll stop to let it go

 

Forget those thoughts that you’ve confused

Now throw them back for something new

They never really made much sense to you

 

Lines apart to make a start

For new horizons in the dark

The dawn it breaks to turn and take

What we don’t have, we’ll recreate

 

A space that lies for an escape

In time to find the lines we waste

But in our brains there’s still restraint

So I won’t be the one who bends

I won’t be the one who bends

 

Forget those thoughts that you’ve confused

Now throw them back for something new

They never really made much sense to you

 

Abuses lay for what we want

Inside our vacant minds to haunt

So I won’t be the one who bends

I won’t be the one who bends

 

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Villain Of Circumstance

 

The sky keeps falling down again

So don’t you pay it no attention

A role to switch from foe to friend

But it lies in our perceptions

 

Now everybody gets sold out

By some changes that aren’t changes

While we’ve never known what they’re about

It’s all a matter of persuasion

 

Hold your breath and take a glance

Don’t look behind, just look a head

Yeah roll the dice and take a chance

On this villain of circumstance

Our villain of circumstance

 

This kingdom come keeps coming down

But don’t you worry ’bout the future

When all our roles get turned around

We can sew it up in sutures

 

Though every truth will be denied

Through the fakest of transgressions

To host our logic’s suicide

With some wasted apprehension

 

Hold your breath and take a glance

Don’t look behind, just look a head

Yeah roll the dice and take a chance

On this villain of circumstance

Our villain of circumstance

 

Well maybe it’s you or maybe it’s me

But there’s always some truths that we don’t wanna see

As we live in illusions for rules we’d condemn

Is it all in the facts or just trapped in my head?

A line to retract when the ending’s mis-read

 

Hold your breath and take a glance

Don’t look behind, just look a head

Yeah roll the dice and take a chance

On this villain of circumstance

Our villain of circumstance

 

Close your eyes to get a sense

Decisive minds still on the fence

Will we make it back? It all depends

On our villain of circumstance

Our villain of circumstance

 

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Moneymouths

 

Will we make it out alive?

No one thinks that we’ll survive

Moneymouths to make our beds

As they all rest their weary heads

 

You should take these wings and fly

Beyond the dark and starlit skies

Energy and time in time

I swear I’ll make you mine, all mine

 

But will they ever find solutions?

We’ve been trying to find a clear way out

In this car crash there’s contusions

And we’ve all got our moneymouths

We’ve all got our moneymouths

 

Did you ever understand?

As the words slipped through your hands

Fractured lines to pass along

With all the thoughts that you got wrong

 

In the same old songs we hear again

On every side, a new defense

Ascend until you see the lies it spawns

 

But will they ever find solutions?

We’ve been trying to find a clear way out

In this car crash there’s contusions

And we’ve all got our moneymouths

We’ve all got our moneymouths

 

From east to west and north to south

With silent eyes that scream and shout

The sun will rise until it sets

For in our time we’ll all digress

 

Repress what we don’t know

Or when it’s something we’ve disowned

Some contradicting thoughts they won’t let go

 

But will they ever find solutions?

We’ve been trying to find a clear way out

In this car crash there’s contusions

And we’ve all got our moneymouths

We’ve all got our moneymouths

 

From east to west and north to south

With silent eyes that scream and shout

We’ve all got our moneymouths

We’ve all got our moneymouths

 

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Inside Your Head

 

You think that I’ve been sanitized

But my mouth is still diseased

Rabid words to fill the air

So disgusting and obscene

 

I know that we’re all hypocrites

Sunk down to the ocean floor

Bottom feeding every thought

When it’s hardest to ignore

 

Picked them off like dinosaurs

This ice age came too soon

Fossils left to leave behind

Like some posters in our rooms

With each reason still in bloom

 

You can’t contain the victimless

For these stories to come through

Pretty soon we’ll drift apart

But this outbreak’s all on you

 

Distorted facts for innocence

With reflections rarely clear

Internal judgements laid to rest

As the reasons disappear

 

Picked them off like dinosaurs

This ice age came too soon

Fossils left to leave behind

Like some posters in our rooms

With each reason still in bloom

 

Your tortured life, some words ignored

Can’t find the light, you needed more

Inside your head, these thoughts are sick

It’s fucking dead, I’m still a prick

 

And still it’s slick, shipwreck ahead

We’re fading quick, what’s that you said?

Unlike before, all words incite

It’s such a bore, so say goodnight

 

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Empty Spaces

 

Now I hear you hiding in the shadows

Through empty spaces drifting in the night

No one really understands what they know

A figure in the corner of my eyes

 

Off in the horizon it’s still calling

Muffled from the distance just as well

Everyone’s convinced the sky is falling

But me, I’m just as certain I can’t tell

 

What you can’t see will skip like a stone

You’ll find an escape but still wait here alone

If this is the end you should try to defend

Every space where the rest is unknown

 

But what would you disown?

What would you disown

 

Always made to taunt you with indifference

Waging wars so you can make it there

It rarely takes the path of least resistance

But me, I’m just as certain I don’t care

 

What you can’t see will skip like a stone

You’ll find an escape but still wait here alone

If this is the end you should try to defend

Every space where the rest is unknown

Every space where the rest is unknown

 

Wait now with blank stares

You know we’re gonna make it there

Nothing’s wrong but still you see

You’re living in some fantasy again

 

What you can’t see will skip like a stone

You’ll find an escape but still wait here alone

If this is the end you should try to defend

Every space where the rest is unknown

Every space where the rest is unknown

 

But what would you disown?

Oh what would you disown?

What would you disown?

Please don’t wait here alone

 

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Life Or Death

 

Outside with mother nature

We’re miles and miles from home

A reminder of what lies ahead

Trickles through the telephone

 

Yeah it’s everywhere around us

But we never stop to think

That at any point this time could end

And we’re always on the brink

 

It makes a perfect circle

One that lies in our respects

We could never understand it

When it isn’t life or death

It isn’t life or death

 

Now somewhere in the city

It keeps calling through the storms

A response that’s left for sheltered lives

And the time we choose to mourn

 

But through all our hesitations

Made for what’s been done before

In measured time for a resting place

When we always want some more

 

It makes a perfect circle

One that lies in our respects

We could never understand it

When it isn’t life or death

It isn’t life or death

 

Afterlives and blinded eyes

There’s no one here who knows

With borrowed time we’ll all rewind

Erased and then let go

 

Everyone believes that time is under their control

All rivers flow, all rivers flow…

 

It makes a perfect circle

One that lies in our respects

We could never understand it

When it isn’t life or death

 

It makes a perfect circle

One that lies in our respects

We could never understand it

When it isn’t life or death

It isn’t life or death

 

It isn’t life or death

It isn’t life or death

 

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Excuses

 

As spring time led to summer

In tune for hearts to grow

I’ve bypassed every wonder

Decayed from what I know

Drifting in the air, I can’t let go

 

We’re nothing more than you wanted to be

The years go by and now you see

That I’m the only one still mentioning you

 

There’s nothing to say and there’s nothing to do

You can’t change a thing when there’s no getting through

There’s nothing left but you’ve got an excuse

 

As leaves all burn in autumn

Our summers up in flames

With memories made for deathbeds

When I still showed restraint

Wiping back the tears you can’t contain

 

We’re nothing less than you wanted to be

The years go by and now you see

That I’m the only one still mentioning you

 

There’s nothing to say and there’s nothing to do

You can’t change a thing when there’s no getting through

There’s nothing left but I’ve got an excuse

 

Tortured nights never led to a truce

No thoughts could describe all the words we’ve abused

There’s nothing here that means a thing at all

 

Marking your steps as you stopped looking down

Ashamed of the past and there’s no one around

Still inching forward as we learn to crawl

 

There’s nothing to say and there’s nothing to do

For every defense I’ve tried sorting through

With nothing to win and nothing to lose

It’s buried in lies with the obvious truth

 

I’ve tried my best and seen that it’s no use

There’s nothing left but we’ve got an excuse

 

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Pursuit Of Happiness

 

You pull the strings that are keeping me here

A foot in the grave and the other in fear

Welcome the world that can harbour our greed

Nothing but a math of reduction to me

Now what if I’m left to wander alone?

Afraid of the words that come through the phone

Inside of my head all my brain cells are dead

And no one remembers a thing that they said

 

Our pursuit of happiness

Our pursuit of happiness

 

You cash the checks that can wash it away

One hand in the pot and the other enslaved

All instances trapped for somebody else

I’m used to the shit but get sick of the smell

So what if I’ve left to never come clean?

Obsessed with these thoughts that can’t be redeemed

Now every last name, they all stay the same

In time to sort out that there’s no one to blame

 

Our pursuit of happiness

Our pursuit of happiness

 

Redressed with what cannot exist

They’re only lies that get dismissed

Existing in the lines to read between

 

You’d think that I could rise above

But I can’t seem to get enough

I’ll never disagree that it’s obscene

It’s so obscene

 

A foot in the grave and the other one lost

We could try moving on but there’s always a cost

 

Our pursuit of happiness

Our pursuit of happiness

 

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Abandon Ship!

 

Well this is where we make it out

With nothing left to say

In some comatose reflections now

For the ones who went astray

Safety nets are meaningless

All for losers in the game

Curse their silent mutinies

Then start planning your escape

 

Abandon ship you idiots

What time could still remain?

Inside our head’s some hero’s bits

But abandoned all the same

There’s nothing to explain

 

Sold our thoughts to think tanks

While they drifted through the skies

Some guilt to eat your heart away

As we strain to wonder why

Defaced are all the virtuous

So the devil gets its wish

To take you down from outside in

Good intentions all dismissed

 

Abandon ship you idiots

What time could still remain?

Inside our head’s some hero’s bits

But abandoned all the same

There’s nothing to explain

 

When all this shit won’t seem to end

I won’t be going back again

Inside out with no defense

It never really made much sense

 

Now I’ve become a better man

Much better than you think I am

Amends to form our last regrets

So I won’t be the one who bends

I won’t be the one who bends

 

I won’t be the one who bends

I won’t be the one who bends

 

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Interventions

 

Everyone’s obsessed with interventions

Little words, all too absurd to mention

Come between this nightmare and some sleep

Nothing that we see is meant to keep

 

Everybody knows what’s best to think now

Struggling with the will, it’s still lost somehow

Made for futures washed up in the sand

Sunny days without a winning hand

 

Could you really be so sheltered?

Living blissfully repressed

Well ignorance is no excuse

But again, I must digress

 

Everyone’s obsessed with interventions

Little words that curb our mind’s suspension

 

Circus acts to walk along this tightrope

With balanced thoughts all caught up in some false hope

Carnies that could never compromise

Far beyond the big top in the sky

 

Could they really be so stupid?

All so hopelessly detached

Some intentions convoluted

Tell me how would you react?

 

Everyone’s obsessed with interventions

Underlined the times for your prevention

 

Watch the colours come and go

From sounds that you could never know

Dried up and ashamed

Our thoughts have been detained

 

It’s gonna make an awful sound

But in the end you stood your ground

To come to terms with this

A life of happiness

 

Everyone’s obsessed with interventions

So take what’s left and rest in some redemption

 

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