In Times Of Transition

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As the title implies, these lyrics were born during a time of transition for me.

 

Written around my last year in college, In Times Of Transition captures a lot of turmoil. Because of taking fewer classes per semester, I stayed behind as others (including my girlfriend) graduated. This meant having to start over and making new connections in my final year, which was a strange experience. I knew several students who started after I did, but it was still weird having to rely on a new set of people to help me out.

 

A few summer trips I took in 2006 and 2007 were also big influences on the grouping. I went camping and to a cottage with my future wife and her friends, so a lot of the imagery here is associated with it. Being a big period of adjustment, that’s really what fuelled a lot of what I wrote around this time.

 

As a result, a major theme of this grouping is shifting relationships. A lot of dynamics were changing both personally and between people around me, so it really influenced what I decided to explore. I also went through another bout of writer’s block but didn’t force myself to continue on this time. Waiting until inspiration struck, it turned out a lot better than with Sorry For The Mess.

 

That’s not to say I was entirely patient however. Getting close to the finish line in October 2007, I spontaneously released In Times Of Transition on a whim. While I’m satisfied with it after some revisions now, putting the lyrics up without better quality control was a big mistake. Still, my favourites are probably Summer Stars, Learning To Forget, Flashlight Waltz, Won’t Be Waiting Anymore, For The Present To Regret and Some Questions.

 

For enquiring minds that want to know, the original version of In Times Of Transition can be found in the Fireteddy National Library. You can also check out what didn’t make the cut here.

 

Lyrics Contents

 

01. Summer Stars

02. Reasons Left To Stay

03. Learning To Forget

04. Flashlight Waltz

05. Smoke And Mirrors

06. Won’t Be Waiting Anymore

07. For The Present To Regret

08. Cuts And Bruises

09. I Won’t Rescue You

10. Everything’s Okay

11. All The Same

12. Some Questions

 

Summer Stars

 

We lost our lives to those summer stars

Is there a chance we’ll get them back?

We’ve been burning holes to lose control

But there’s nothing to attack

 

In the end you know it’s all for fun

We’re like the wounded on parade

But all around when the lights go down

In this town we’ll have it made

 

We’ll walk with our disasters ’til they sort away our heads

Celebrate the scars we have while truths remain unsaid

No one has the answers but they’ll always play pretend

Still I promise you I’ll never be misled

 

We lost ourselves to those summer nights

But there’s hope we’ll still survive

We’ve sunk some ships with our loose lips

Now there’s nothing left to hide

 

In the end you’ll find it’s all for show

We’re like some cavemen on display

We’ll guide the flock while these people gawk

Then just talk like we’re okay

 

We’ll walk with our disasters ’til they sort away our heads

Celebrate the scars we have while truths remain unsaid

No one has the answers but they’ll always play pretend

Still I promise you I’ll never be misled

I promise you I’ll never be…

 

In my eyes there has to be some meaning

But in your heart there has to be some truth

While all these compromises keep repeating

Pretty soon you’ll see it’s wasted youth

 

So what’s to say and what’s to feel?

When absolutely nothing’s real, I don’t know

 

We’ll walk with our disasters ’til they sort away our heads

Celebrate the scars we have while truths remain unsaid

No one has the answers but they’ll always play pretend

Still I promise you I’ll never be misled

I promise you I’ll never be misled

 

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Reasons Left To Stay

 

Everything keeps changing

Why can’t it all just stay the same?

With a tight grip on that heart of yours

And a bullet to your name

 

I’m sure it’s irresponsible

But every letter goes unseen

It still stabs you in your heart strings though

So these words can be redeemed

 

Suffering thoughts are led to rot

So they can settle up the score

Someone’s hit the jackpot now

But it still feels like before

 

Everything keeps bending

Until the roles are finally swapped

You’ll defend what’s in that head of yours

Before the paranoia stops

 

I’m sure that it’s irrational

While each intention stays unknown

There’s a flaw in this behaviour though

In the end it’s all condoned

 

Suffering thoughts are led to rot

So they can settle up the score

Someone’s hit the jackpot now

But it still feels like before

 

Gotta get your head up, gotta get your head up

Gotta get your head up above the waves

 

Gotta get your head up, gotta get your head up

Gotta get your head up above the waves

Are you gonna live in fear and wait for things to change??

There’s no one you can talk to now and no one left to blame

 

Suffering thoughts are led to rot

So they can settle up the score

Someone’s hit the jackpot now

But it still feels like before

It still feels like before

 

Everything’s still hanging

Why can’t you turn and look away?

With a simple call for the life you have

There’s no reasons left to stay

 

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Learning To Forget

 

One year’s gone past and nothing’s the same

We fought and we fought until we all felt ashamed

But somewhere in combat some hearts still grew strong

If only to wind up back where they belong

 

I feel like I’ve failed you and that’s only the start

It’s a shadow that’s broken but still cast on my heart

and somewhere again we’ll reflect on our friends

But sometimes I wonder if this shit ever ends

 

And it’s always stuck in my head

All the roads that we travelled instead

As we all drive away, there ain’t nothing to say

But it’s the price that we pay ’til it’s dead

And it always seems stuck in my head

 

One month has passed and the silence sets in

We all know where it’s going but forget where we’ve been

While somewhere in darkness some hearts fell to ruin

If only to show us that it happened too soon

 

You feel like I owe you and that’s what’s perceived

In distress you walk blindly in a rush to proceed

In the night we refrain as it goes down the drain

In an instant it vanished but it’s still unexplained

 

And it’s always stuck in my head

All the roads that we travelled instead

As we all drive away, there ain’t nothing to say

But it’s the price that we pay ’til it’s dead

And it always seems stuck in my head

 

Forget what you’re told and forget what you’re fed

We could forge many highways in our own wilderness

I’m tired of this waiting and that’s just what I said

 

Why don’t you analyze my head?

As I stretch across the bed

 

And it’s always stuck in my head

All the roads that we travelled instead

As we all drive away, there ain’t nothing to say

But it’s the price that we pay ’til it’s dead

And it always seems stuck in my head

 

Forget what you’re told and forget what you’re fed

We could forge many highways in our own wilderness

 

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Flashlight Waltz

 

Save me this last dance, if you feel so inclined

I’ve done a whole lot of thinking, there’s so much on my mind

And we’ve all got our secrets that we’ve struggled to hide

Locked up in attics for our thoughts to confide

 

These shadows run distant like stars in the night

Some black holes to swallow any wavering light

Won’t you please hold my hand as the silence sets in?

We won’t know where we’re going until you see where we’ve been

 

But I know that it isn’t the same

I still wake up to signs that all find you’ve been passing the blame

 

And I know exactly what you think

Yeah I know that I’ve been here before but I’ve never felt more wide awake

I’ve never been more, I’ve never been more wide awake

 

Please save me this waltz if you feel so inclined

In our distance by flashlight, now it’s still hard to find

But we’ve all got some demons brushed away to the side

Chained down in basements where the light never hides

 

But I know that it isn’t the same

I still wake up to signs that all find you’ve been passing the blame

 

And I know exactly what you think

Yeah I know that I’ve been here before but I’ve never felt more wide awake

I’ve never been more, I’ve never been more wide awake

I’ve never been more wide awake

 

No I’ve never been more wide awake

I’ve never been more wide awake

 

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Smoke And Mirrors

 

I’m tired of these whispers coming up from the ground

When all this fucking bullshit always seems so profound

No one wants to hear it, but they open up their ears

You know that being older ain’t just running down the years

 

Convince me not to speak out, so we’ll always play these games

It’s such a pretty movie, ’cause the parts are all the same

I swear that it’s so crazy, how these things all fade in time

But if I could find the antidote, would it give you peace of mind?

 

Here we fight our battles behind some smoke and mirrors

Where there’s nothing that’s worth losing and nothing left but fear

You’d better watch your back before the words all disappear

When you’re fighting all your battles behind some smoke and mirrors

You’ve been fighting all your battles behind some smoke and mirrors

 

Somewhere in the distance, your past will live to say

It tells you what you wanna hear, but you know you can’t escape

Even when it shelters all the plans for your demise

You find it hard to concentrate and strain to close your eyes

 

Pick a side to fight on and watch the flames consume

Every thought you’ve ever had, until your memory’s been exhumed

Revisionary history and truths you’ve learnt to bend

But it doesn’t really matter where you wind up in the end

 

Here we fight our battles behind some smoke and mirrors

Where there’s nothing that’s worth losing and nothing left but fear

You’d better watch your back before the words all disappear

When you’re fighting all your battles behind some smoke and mirrors

You’ve been fighting all your battles behind some smoke and mirrors

 

In times of transition I’m stuck here in a rut

But the things that get repeated make me feel like I’m the slut

If this is called a living you can take my last words back

Because the time that I’ve been given is more precious than the past

 

When there’s nothing left to say, there’s nothing to retract

But now you know there ain’t no going back

Now you know there ain’t no going back

 

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Won’t Be Waiting Anymore

 

No offence to you, I can’t be held inside these lines

It still won’t bring us closer, it just creates a great divide

Call it what you want to honey, it’s all a waste of time

Some gangs to fill these vacant streets of absent minded lies

 

It seems to me I’ve seen this and it’s all been done before

You want to label something ‘cause it needs to be adorned

I’m not sure where this drops off, but we’ll pace across the floors

Beheaded from all meaning, stretched beyond what we’ve ignored

 

But I won’t be waiting anymore

I won’t be waiting anymore

 

When we started out here, there was fire in our veins

But now we’ll just grow distant, with all these things left unexplained

Call it a disaster honey, you pass off all the blame

For all the nights we lied awake and waited for the rain

 

We wondered what the future held and what the past was for

But now I’ve seen it all and I don’t want it anymore

I don’t know how to fake it, now I’m running for the door

A vacant mind to roam the streets of truths we can’t afford

 

But I won’t be waiting anymore

I won’t be waiting anymore

 

Forget those secret winter nights

We’ll pass them through the morning light

Forget those secret winter nights some more

 

It won’t bring us any closer, it just creates a great divide

Well no offence to you, I won’t be held inside these lines

 

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For The Present To Regret

 

For every single last desire

I’ll light your flame with eyes of fire

Nothing found but come up strange

I’ll sell my soul to try and change

 

We could stand here, years unknown

But what you need ain’t set in stone

With every chance I’ve ever had

You’ve told me that this ain’t so bad

 

If the past dictates my memories

And the future holds what’s next

Then what’s left for the present to regret?

 

Though all these changes still take place

We’ve left a path that we’ll retrace

To lead us back where we belong

In open arms that write our wrongs

 

We could stand straight, stopped for me

But I’ll march against adversity

I’ll still resist these things for you

You’ve shown me words to be renewed

 

If the past dictates my memories

And the future holds what’s next

Then what’s left for the present to regret?

 

Oh what’s left for the present to regret?

What’s left for the present to regret?

 

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Cuts And Bruises

 

As we laid motionless, beneath the summer skies

The stars reflected off your brown and teary eyes

I can’t help these thoughts, I still drift back sometimes

My heart was in your vice, but you had lost your mind

 

Like the moonlight peaking through the autumn trees

Your life was such a waste, you were almost on your knees

In a silent prayer, you never made a sound

And now you call for help, but there’s no one else around

 

These cuts and bruises never seem to heal

These cuts and bruises never seemed so real

 

Your tears kept falling before the rainstorm in the dark

And soon your misty eyes extinguished every spark

Blow out the candles on the cake of your despair

I tried to save you, but the smoke was always there

 

Like the London fog that wraps around the night

You billowed in the air and drifted out of sight

In the morning light, I knew these things would change

Everything held dear was flooded by the rain

 

These cuts and bruises never seem to heal

These cuts and bruises never seemed so real

 

So tell me now what I should feel

The past was wrong, it’s been concealed

Revealed for what it couldn’t be, oh no

 

Let it drop and watch it go

Let it fade until you know

Until the feeling always ends up overthrown

 

These cuts and bruises never seem to heal

These cuts and bruises never seemed so real

 

These cuts and bruises never seem to heal

These cuts and bruises never seemed so real

These cuts and bruises never seemed so real

These cuts and bruises never seemed so real

 

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I Won’t Rescue You

 

Everybody lends defense

But I don’t understand a thing

Yeah the last time I checked in on you

You were trying to pull some strings

 

Could it just be that I’m jaded now?

Well I’m not so sure that’s it

But in fairness I was wrong at times

While these games all made me quit

 

Hypocrites and politics, I’ve come to know a few

If you hate something so strongly honey, don’t you do it too

No don’t you do it too

 

Another line and then I’m finally through

You just need to know that I won’t rescue you

 

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Everything’s Okay

 

Every move you make is just another on the list

You wanted me to settle in, yet still I must resist

With nothing left to hold onto, there isn’t much to fear

Biased or unbiased, you can make the call my dear

 

I’ve known a few somewhat like you, but crazy all the same

When everything here falls to ruin, you’ll try to pass the blame

Sadistically made jealous, I’m not sure if there’s much space

Between the answers that you still hold true and your obvious distaste

 

Tell me are you waiting for another chance to say

You wanna prove me wrong I know, but everything’s okay

Pretend we’re done and then you’ll run to chase another day

But everything’s okay now baby

Isn’t everything okay?

 

Is there something you won’t sacrifice to get a taste of this?

Another call for comas where the past still won’t exist

It’s getting dark and stormy, yet the sun’s behind the clouds

You try to put a brave face on, but the thunder’s still so loud

 

Hide out in your shelter now to dodge the pouring rain

I know that I’m the bad guy here, but you’ve slowly gone insane

Tragic doll, you’ll take the fall for everything again

But I can wait for you on the other side with these letters you won’t send

 

Tell me are you waiting for another chance to say

You wanna prove me wrong I know, but everything’s okay

Pretend we’re done and then you’ll run to chase another day

But everything’s okay now baby

Isn’t everything okay?

 

They’re wondering what went wrong with us

From eight to four to one to dust

We never really had that much

But we’ll never make a fuss

 

Stalking eyes from outside in

We’ll make them think we’re free from sin

But we’ll never make a fuss

We won’t ever make a fuss

 

Every move you make is just another on the list

But everything’s okay now baby, isn’t it?

 

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All The Same

 

As the anger subsides, what’s there left in our hands?

No it’s not suicide, but it’s forced reprimand

I’m so tired of this waiting for the words to come down

Because it’s all so absurd and we can’t turn around

 

Can you look in the past and then stare at the light?

Oh we’ve seen our mistakes, but we’ve all lost our sight

Now all of these phrases, they get lost in the flames

But as the days wander by, there’ll be no one to blame

 

Ain’t it all the same?

Ain’t it all the same to you?

 

Ain’t it all the same?

Ain’t it all the same to you?

 

As our heads all cave in, there’s no respect to be had

But that’s where hatred begins, when things were never that bad

And now our whispers have formed, because these lines have been used

Oh I don’t know anymore, but I think you’re confused

 

If we held onto life, like we champion death

Would we shine in the night? Would there be anything left?

I’m so sick of these lies as any sympathy wanes

Why can’t you look in my eyes and find a good thing to say?

 

Ain’t it all the same?

Ain’t it all the same to you?

 

Ain’t it all the same?

Ain’t it all the same to you now?

 

Rolling in my head, it was destined to be

Nothing worth repeating , but this secret society

If the words were all so meaningless, why would you even care?

When the lights came back on, you were never really there

 

Ain’t it all the same?

Ain’t it all the same to you?

 

Ain’t it all the same?

Ain’t it all the same?

 

Ain’t it all the same?

Ain’t it all the same to you?

 

Ain’t it all the same?

Now there’s nothing left, nothing left to do

 

Now there’s nothing left, there’s nothing left to do

They say it’s all the same so there’s no use

 

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Some Questions

 

Everybody’s leaving, cause there’s nothing left to see

And there’s no such thing as secrets that everyone can keep

For if there were, I’d keep you and your heart would stay with me

Forever as two lovers, like a shipwreck in the sea

 

Tell me all the meanings and the gold I’ve yet to find

Nothing’s all that sacred, yeah we’re all just wasting time

But maybe if you answer all the things that come to mind

You’ll see that we’re both destined for our lives to intertwine

 

I’ve yet to find resistance or a pathway back home

But I’ve come to find that my questions have all been disowned

And I’m a stone, I’m a stone’s throw away

From something to say

 

As autumn stumbles through and destroys the summer air

Planes are always crashing but no one seems to care

Only blinded people who once found the sun and stared

They can see beyond the surface but I guess they’re still impaired

 

Treasured are the secrets, they’re the moments we recall

We’ll always have the memories or some fondness that evolves

While everybody’s leaving, will you wait here in the hall?

I’ve been working on a mystery that no one else will solve

 

So without some clear resistance or a pathway back home

Now I’ve come to find that my questions have all been disowned

And I’m a stone, I’m a stone’s throw away

From something to say

 

I’m a stone, I’m a stone’s throw away

From leaving today

 

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