Sunlight Flickers

From starlit nights of burning neon to quiet rooms and county roads, Sunlight Flickers explores memories newly unearthed.

 

In advance of Diurnal’s release on Friday September 30, its first lyrics are some of the most vivid from the upcoming project. Mining the past for content, Sunlight Flickers’ evokes nights saturated in colour and mistakes exposed under harsh daylight. Perhaps it’s fitting then that the original version was in limbo for 17 years after being written.

 

Created in December 2004, Sunlight Flickers wasn’t rediscovered until the Fireteddy National Library (opens in new tab) was put together. Knowing Diurnal’s title and themes of revisiting the past already, it presented a moment of serendipity I couldn’t ignore. After painstakingly editing and re-editing the lyrics multiple times with much help from my friend Carol, I arrived at the final version being released today.

 

As a bonus, two pieces written during the sessions for Diurnal have also been included. Inspired by students from Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School (opens in new tab) in Parkland, Florida, Bridge Of Opportunity is about finding resolve in the face of seemingly overwhelming opposition. On a very different note, Transference is about being driven by general desires vs. attraction and realizing the difference between them.

 

A portion of Sunlight Flickers’ evolution can also be viewed in an alternate version below. Although it isn’t the original (opens in new window,) the piece contains many similar elements and was the first attempt at an update for Diurnal. The end result is something that exists between the two.

 

For more information on my new group of lyrics dropping a week from today, be sure to read the official announcement post.

 

Lyrics Content

 

01. Sunlight Flickers

02. Bridge Of Opportunity

03. Transference

04. Sunlight Flickers (alternate version)

 

Sunlight Flickers

 

I’ve seen you cry on starlit nights

Beneath red fireworks set alight

Burning neon, streaking bright

It’s time to dry your eyes

 

Returning memories kept enslaved

Exposing dreams our lives betrayed

Morning holds no hiding place

For monsters not confined

 

It’s always on my mind

With what gets pushed aside

 

From trampolines and swimming pools

Some dirty thoughts in quiet rooms

All the things we couldn’t do

When nothing comes for free

 

This haunted house, your favourite clothes

Forgotten places no one knows

City streets and county roads

Each truth that floats downstream

 

With flaws in our beliefs

It’s all in what we grieve

 

Now if this sunlight flickers

Will we be guided by the sparks?

Another memory triggered

We’re always stumbling in the dark

 

Reflecting as the day begins

There’s nothing much of consequence

Looking back on where we’ve been

It keeps us well-preserved

 

With honest fears that get pushed down

All rising to the surface now

Caustic views once disavowed

Have finally been unearthed

 

Compounding what still hurts

But how much is it worth?

 

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Bridge Of Opportunity

 

I can’t believe the news today

Although the things we need may seem so far away

Hold your breath, there’s no retreating

When the past won’t stop repeating

There’s a truth in what this fiction can’t portray

 

We’re pushing through from underneath

In spite of everything they want us to believe

It takes great courage for assistance

A little time to gain resistance

There’s still a structure that can keep us on our feet

 

You can’t hope to change the future if you never plant a seed

In the middle of such chaos, rising up from tragedy

We all struggle to remember when it’s hardest to believe

They built a bridge of opportunity, a bridge of opportunity to seize

 

It doesn’t take a crystal ball

To know the future comes from how our past evolves

Save your breath until you need it

If this feels wrong or you’ve been cheated

The weight we shoulder only strengthens our resolve

 

You can’t hope to change the future if you never plant a seed

In the middle of such chaos, rising up from all our grief

We all struggle to remember when it’s hardest to believe

They built a bridge of opportunity, a bridge of opportunity to seize

 

It drags us down but in the wreckage

Coming up above the flames

We can move past all our sorrow

Stretching far beyond the pain

 

It’s our instinct to keep fighting

Even when we feel betrayed

What’s left to say? What’s left to say?

 

I can’t believe the news today

Although these things we need may seem so far away

 

You can’t hope to change the future if you never plant a seed

In the middle of such chaos, rising up from tragedy

We all struggle to remember when it’s hardest to believe

They built a bridge of opportunity, a bridge of opportunity to seize

 

A bridge of opportunity to seize

A bridge of opportunity to seize

 

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Transference

 

I never really loved you

Rewired to play pretend

While some might call it desperate

It isn’t my defense

 

Though I was feeling lonely

Still struggling to connect

My object of obsession

There’s nothing to profess

 

It’s time to move along

It’s time to move along again

These false emotions never end

I only seem to shake them

 

When I’m not being rejected

That’s how it starts to shift

With feelings made evasive

My mind begins to drift

 

It rises out of nowhere

Until I’m out of line

Eclipsing any reason

I can’t say I’m surprised

 

It’s time to move along

It’s time to move along again

These false emotions never end

I only seem to shake them…

 

When thoughts all interact

These thoughts come back to flood my head

They only seem to transfer when

I start to feel alone again

 

Moving out of sight, it’s easy to forget

Imprisoned in my mind but I’m trying to progress

 

Moving out of sight, it’s easy to forget

Imprisoned in my mind so there isn’t any rest

 

It’s time to move along

It’s time to move along again

These false emotions never end

I only seem to shake them…

 

When thoughts all interact

These thoughts come back to flood my head

They only seem to transfer when

I start to feel alone again

I start to feel alone again

 

I start to feel alone again

I start to feel my loneliness

 

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Sunlight Flickers (alternate version)

 

I’ve seen your face in sunset light

The neon glow of city nights

Nothing’s wrong, now it’s alright

From what we’ve memorized

 

Distortions come in many ways

Illusions keep our past enslaved

Morning brings this bitter taste

No shadow can confine

 

Why weren’t you ever mine?

Why weren’t you ever mine?

 

It’s lovely like a yellow rose

This blooming heart for those who know

Moving past, the future grows

But you don’t have to leave

 

So if it’s true your garden’s filled

With things you thought the storm would kill

When I’m right, won’t wait until

It’s hardest to receive

 

Now if this sunlight flickers

Will we be guided by the sparks?

Another memory triggered

To leave us stumbling in the dark

 

When time informs what we become

Our time apart feels cumbersome

It’s funny now but I feel dumb

For running straight to you

 

With thoughts that I would once reject

Where feelings from our past are kept

I know it’s such a disconnect

From what I still can’t do

 

In running from the truth

It all comes back to you

 

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