Between The Night And Day

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Originally conceived as a sequel to past lyrics, Between The Night And Day became much more in the end.

 

With the pandemic in full swing, I had a lot of time on my hands. Writing lyrics for Diurnal, which was supposed to be my next grouping, it led to revisiting lots of old stuff as well. I soon went down a rabbit hole and reading large chunks of past lyrics inspired this website in January 2021.

 

Earlier than that however, it also sparked a new idea. In fall 2020, Our Lady Peace (opens in new tab) announced that they had recorded a sequel to their 2001 album Spiritual Machines (opens in new tab.) Having read so much from my past, I started wondering what that might look like for one of my own groups of lyrics. Since I’d initially written four of them in 2001, several 20th anniversaries were coming up and that got my gears turning even more.

 

Eventually I chose Sleepwalking for a few reasons. it had the most interesting ground to revisit, was the first thing I’d released in 2001 and also fit the themes I was currently exploring. If these new lyrics were going to slide between Nocturnal and Diurnal, it couldn’t feel forced or jarring. I still wanted there to be a flow so that the connective tissue leading from the last grouping to the next wasn’t severed.

 

Although the concept seemed straight forward, it changed a few times along the way. Writing direct continuations of stories from Sleepwalking, I eventually realized that it wouldn’t work for the entire group of lyrics. Still, while continuing the process, I started listening to music that originally influenced that grouping. This included acts like Matthew Good Band, Our Lady Peace, Radiohead, Pearl Jam, Foo Fighters and Powderfinger (all links open in new tabs.) It brought me back to a writing style from those days and became a huge inspiration.

 

From there, I started exploring more varied topics about my past and some rooted in the present. It was around then that I abandoned the idea of calling the grouping SW2 as well. Coming from a lyric in Man Of Action (opens in new tab,) one of my favourite Matthew Good Band songs, Between The Night And Day soon took its place. given the group titles surrounding this one, along with it being part of the music that inspired these lyrics, it just made sense.

 

Soon after however, something happened that altered how I approached these lyrics again.

 

In February, Matthew Good was accused of being a serial abuser (both links open in new tabs) by his ex-girlfriend. Further allegations included grooming, mental and emotional abuse/manipulation and sexual coercion. It also led to a chain reaction of events: He was immediately dropped from his record label, the Canadian Mental Health Association cut ties and several women came forward with accounts of alleged mistreatment or sexually driven interactions.

 

In light of what allegedly occurred, I questioned continuing with these lyrics. Ultimately the decision was made to stick with them though. I was focused on a specific time in my own life and what influenced that. To me, omitting MGB and Matthew Good himself would’ve been dishonest. I’m not worshipping the man behind the art, I’m acknowledging the art’s influence on me. Music that he and his bandmates created did help me form my own lyrical language and I think that’s important to convey. Maybe it’s a cop out, but that’s my reasoning behind it anyway.

 

Oddly enough, Keeping Matt Good’s influence intact for this project made it a bit cathartic. I’ve still got some complicated feelings about the accusations in relation to my fandom (and I’ll write about that in the future.) Still, I was able to sort out a lot of feelings by writing this. It also added some unintentional subtext to things that were written before any public accusations were made.

 

Following that, it looked as if everything was finished in July or August. When something like this appears to be done, I’ll let it sit for a few weeks and come back to it. In this case though, the lyrics were very much not ready when I did. I ended up cutting four things, writing two new ones, reworking one really old thing and bringing something back that didn’t fit before. It was a marathon that ended in October when I shuffled around the way it flowed too.

 

So with that out of the way, this December 3 release is what I’ve been working on since fall 2020. Enjoy!

 

Lyrics Content

 

01. Can’t Escape

02. Echoes From The Past

03. Living To Pretend

04. Isolated

05. Level 12 Elf

06. Kayla Ann

07. Chasing Down The Answers

08. Contagious

09. Corner Streets

10. Thick As Thieves

11. Phoenix Rising

12. Before The Past

13. Sunset

 

Can’t Escape

 

From complicated reasons

We’re all heroes to ourselves

Though I’m not sure I can save you

When you’re crying out for help

 

In looking to explain this

False convictions for the cause

It began as harmless static

Only white noise to turn off

 

No one could’ve seen ahead at all

No one could’ve seen ahead at all

 

Now gathered for a minute

Looking back on where we’ve been

I can’t claim to be your conscience

When you’re standing on the ledge

 

Although this sounds alarming

As it plays inside your brain

Pretty soon you’ll find an answer

That can cure you all the same

 

As these thoughts start to rewind

Is there something on your mind?

It’s not that hard to find if you keep searching

 

We’ve been struggling with the past

But it wasn’t meant to last

Our memories move so fast when they’re reversing

 

Kept in every truth we can’t escape

Victims of the choices in our wake

 

Since no one heard it coming

Lost through frequencies withdrawn

All so mired in false assertions

Left to sort out what went wrong

 

No one could’ve seen ahead at all

No one could’ve seen ahead at all

 

As these thoughts start to rewind

Is there something on your mind?

It’s not that hard to find if you keep searching

 

We’ve been struggling with the past

But it wasn’t meant to last

Our memories move so fast when they’re reversing

 

Kept in every truth we can’t escape

Victims of the choices in our wake

 

Kept in every truth we can’t escape

Lurking in the time that slides away

 

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Echoes From The Past

 

With nothing else but false intent

There’s still no end to what’s in sight

You couldn’t cheat these future plans

As every chance collapsed in time

 

Lost In words you’ve always feared

Between your ears to disobey

Some echoes from the past returned

Informed to yearn for yesterday

 

Gas masks on, we run outside

There’s nowhere left for us to hide

While everybody speaks their minds to play them back again

 

Stretching out to fill the space

Beyond regret for what’s embraced

Until you get a little taste, it’s hard to understand

 

In planning for the noise that comes

Your senses numb to what’s transpired

Obsessed with thoughts evading you

Now cutting through the rising fire

 

Storming down these empty halls

From curtain calls you’ll disavow

Those razor wires that still protrude

They’ve all confused their purpose now

 

Gas masks on, we run outside

There’s nowhere left for us to hide

While everybody speaks their minds to play them back again

 

Stretching out to fill the space

Beyond regret for what’s embraced

Until you get a little taste, it’s hard to understand

 

Our echoes from the past return, ignored with any true concern

Recounting what we chose to burn and shed along the way

 

Our echoes from the past return, with lessons that we’ll never learn

Despite the things you might have heard, there’s nothing else to say

 

Gas masks on, we run outside

There’s nowhere left for us to hide

While everybody speaks their minds to play them back again

 

Stretching out to fill the space

Beyond regret for what’s embraced

Until you get a little taste, it’s hard to understand

 

Our echoes from the past, echoes from the past

Echoes from the past again

 

Our echoes from the past, echoes from the past

Echoes from the past again

 

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Living To Pretend

 

Didn’t travel west to Hollywood

She never went to Montreal

I heard she’s living in Toronto

Although she won’t return my calls

 

Some people thought she was a stripper

While others questioned her intent

I’d like to think that we connected

She always claimed to be a friend

 

Now I’m waiting for the burnout

We swore to never fade away

She’s still the girl who lives combustible

As every indecision strays

 

I know her boyfriend was an asshole

But there’s a story in between

It’s such a shame I’ll never hear it

Because this fiction sounds obscene

 

How many lines can I keep blurring

Before they figure out the truth?

I’ve got her number in my yearbook

Another sign of wasted youth

 

Now I’m waiting for the burnout

We swore to never fade away

She’s still the girl who haunts my memories

As every indecision strays

 

Is there something left to find? Is there something left to say?

Is there something we can try to absolve us of our shame?

 

Come on, let’s go downtown

We can turn this thing around

In these neon lights we’ll drown

Holding tightly to what’s left

 

I know you’ve been misled

But we’ll sleep when we’re all dead

Made to linger in our heads

Always living to pretend

 

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Isolated

 

Everybody’s been isolated

Can’t conquer this divide

Gonna be a long fucking winter

No one’s going outside

 

Hard to fathom what it must be like

We’ll all find out in time

Everybody still feels so lonely

Pulled apart and confined

 

It plays out like a dream

But it’s harder than it seemed in my mind

 

Peering back from cynical glances

As we’ve all hunkered down

Pretty sure every night seems longer

No one’s coming around

 

can’t imagine what this must be like

Never able to heal

I’d guess but it isn’t so easy

When so much is concealed

 

It plays out like a dream

But it’s not quite what it seems when revealed

 

It plays out like a dream

But the truth is that it seems too surreal

 

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Level 12 Elf

 

Maybe in this last year

I’ve come to learn some spells

I think I’ve crossed a fine line

But still it’s hard to tell

Straining now to mention

I’m lost for what to say

Reborn in my depression

I don’t care much these days

 

Looks like it’s December again

She’s been asking where I’ve been

Within these months to find some help

I’m now an elf at level twelve

 

Smitten by our past fears

We’ve tried to face them down

In turn to find some reason

While spread out on the ground

Pressed against the window

Repulsed by what’s outside

A victim of my conscience

With no place left to hide

 

Looks like it’s December again

She’s been asking where I’ve been

Within these months to find some help

I’m now an elf at level twelve

 

In this light

Of each new year’s night

A star will burn

So you can then discern

If what I do is wrong or right

 

Looks like it’s December again

She’s been asking where I’ve been

Within these months to find some help

I’m now an elf at level twelve

 

But I’ve been searching for myself

I’ve been searching for myself

 

I’ve been searching for myself

I’m always searching for myself

 

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Kayla Ann

 

Oh Kayla Ann

She came and went

I wish that I’d resisted

Now I count my days in consequence

 

Well Kayla Ann

It starts so slow

A symbol of my hubris

Retreating fast to let me know

 

Nothing worth having can come without pain

Ashes to ashes, we’ll walk through the flames

Dying to live until it drives us insane

 

So Kayla Ann

She clipped my wings

Although I can’t go back there

For one second I’d give anything

 

Hey Kayla Ann

I’ve spent my wish

While searching for connection

Our indiscretions seem so fixed

 

Nothing worth having can come without pain

Ashes to ashes, we’ll walk through the flames

Dying to live until it drives us insane

 

Built me an ice box, with no way to steer

Awake from this coma, been sleeping for years

Kept cryogenic, I’m still in arrears

 

Stranger than fiction, still frozen in time

We blame this nostalgia, a flaw in design

Begging for reason, they’re all so unkind

It’s only in our minds, it’s only in our minds

 

It’s only in our minds…

 

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Chasing Down The Answers

 

Caught in freedoms once enslaved

While kept estranged from solemn songs

With flowers placed upon each grave

Dug up to showcase what went wrong

 

Suffocate this rising tide

Past lines we once thought bullet proof

Reactions that would blow your mind

Were nothing more than misconstrued

 

So you know we’re always waiting for

Some evidence to come

Still chasing down the answers but

Our legs don’t seem to run

 

If you go to take a picture, please

Don’t pretend it’s black and white

Redacted truths that go unseen

Down the drain and out of sight

 

Ego trumps so many things

Our ink stains racing through the dark

Like coal transformed for diamond rings

Designed with pathways made of sparks

 

Shallow breaths contort such words

In signs we’ve heard to flip this switch

Convictions kept but then returned

Before those voices scattered quick

 

So you know we’re always waiting for

Some evidence to come

Still chasing down the answers but

Our legs don’t seem to run

 

If you go to take a picture, please

Don’t pretend it’s black and white

Redacted truths that go unseen

Down the drain and out of sight

 

Currently our currencies

They’re stretched out in defense

While everywhere the faithful stare

Convince it makes no sense

 

Spoken by the chosen few

Some pieces to reclaim

We’ve caused such harm with false alarms

But now that’s not the case

 

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Contagious

 

On the other side of town

Retracing cracks in the pavement

Where did you find yourself?

That’s what you get for always behavin’

 

We know it’s nothing new

Don’t need to be blind to see it

No one thinks it through

Praying and praying and praying and praying

 

I lost my head on a Saturday night

In a smoke filled room with two rose coloured eyes

Keep it to yourself if you wanna survive

It’s contagious, so contagious…

 

On a dirty country road

Never took the time to pave it

Where did you lose your way?

That’s what you get when you’re stuck misbehavin’

 

It sure ain’t no surprise

Don’t need to be deaf to hear it

Spread this new disguise

Waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting

 

You lost your head on a Saturday night

In a smoked filled room with two rose coloured eyes

Keep it to yourself if you wanna survive

It’s contagious, so contagious…

 

From these headlights in the darkness

We could not see straight ahead

Cast in shadows made invincible

Cutting through the noise instead

We cut through the noise instead

 

I lost my head on a Saturday night

In a smoke filled room with two rose coloured eyes

Keep it to yourself if you wanna survive

It’s contagious…

 

We lost our heads on a Saturday night

In a smoke filled room with two rose coloured eyes

Keep it to yourself if you wanna survive

It’s contagious, so contagious

Contagious, so contagious

 

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Corner Streets

 

Come save me, stop what you’re doing

I’ve got some stray thoughts, now they’re intruding

They keep me tied up, it’s only pure luck

You’ve stuck around

 

Don’t hate me, I know you want to

It’s been a long ride, but I once loved you

This wasn’t simple, still nothing is though

From what I’ve found

 

On corner streets

Where we would meet

To shut it down

 

So lately, I’ve still been thinking

We had a good run, our windows shrinking

Though pathways split up, it’s only dumb luck

That kept us bound

 

On corner streets

Where we would meet

To shut it down

 

On corner streets

World at your feet

Still spinning round

 

Let’s shut it down, shut it down

Shut it down, shut it down

 

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Thick As Thieves

 

Dirty jokes for stupid folks

We’ve been here once before

I know it’s crass, still nothing lasts

These facts can’t be ignored

 

Dressed in scars and broken parts

Exposures kept too long

Our naked truths all get confused

But stop me if I’m wrong

 

When we were thick as thieves

It was easy to receive

 

When we were thick as thieves

Thick as thieves, thick as thieves

 

Silent thoughts once tied in knots

On fingertips they sit

Descriptive words for what’s occurred

So no one can forget

 

Swept away as harmless prey

Now watch the past repeat

Responding quick, I’m getting sick

It’s only make believe

 

When we were thick as thieves

It was easy to receive

 

When we were thick as thieves

Thick as thieves, thick as thieves

 

So coming out in morse code

It couldn’t be maintained

Abandoned by the wayside

From evolution’s strain

 

In widening the distance

This desperation built

I think it’s time to leave now

Because temptation always kills

 

I think it’s time we leave now

Because temptation always kills

 

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Phoenix Rising

 

Stars out in the open skies

Chasing criminals

Passing through, eyes blurry

Gone subliminal

 

Moving like we’re zombies

Lost on county roads

Coming down, towers crumbling

Watched it all explode

 

But what else can I say?

Now what else should I do?

I can always find these memories leading back to you

 

Spending time in hospitals

Put my life on hold

Dropping off, some cutouts

It still takes a toll

 

Parting like we’re strangers

Never once to speak

Moving on, ever changing

Kept in symmetry

 

But what else can I say?

Now what else should I do?

I can always find these memories leading back to you

 

Playing through these conversations

Now they’re scrambled in my head

I can see you in the doorway

With a look I can’t forget

 

Though this flame was always burning

Dragged out in your Sunday best

No one knows how much I loved you

My name scratched out nonetheless

 

You would rise up like a phoenix

Always Rise up like a phoenix

Yeah you’d rise up like a phoenix

I’d watch as you flew on the wind

 

You’d still rise up like a phoenix

Always Rise up like a phoenix

You would rise up like a phoenix

Again and again and again and again and again

 

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Before The Past

 

We had a party down the street

Our future wide open, it was all at our feet

With background players in the room

In time we all left though not a moment too soon

 

Now I’m a lonely man

It’s so strange to keep thinking of the shit that I said

When all the hallways are empty again

All the hallways are empty again…

 

Come on let’s tune this static out

We’ll face our old selves down

Before the past can make a sound

 

There was a party up the block

Our memories impaired by every turn of the clock

From background players that we cast

Our time running out until it all came to pass

 

Now I’m a weathered man

It’s so strange to keep thinking of the lives that we led

But all the bodies get piled up again

All the bodies get piled up again

 

Come on let’s tune this static out

We’ll face our old selves down

Before the past can make a sound

 

In pictures all painted by senses and phrases

Relived and imperfectly kept while they’re taken

Filling in holes with the patchworks we shoulder

These lines slowly fade as we start growing older again

 

Come on let’s tune this static out

We’ll face our old selves down

Before the past can make a sound

 

Come on let’s tune this static out

We’ll face our old selves down

Before the past can make a sound

Before the past can make a sound

 

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Sunset

 

I’m wide awake

It’s hard to sleep at night

When daylight breaks

It lifts these starry skies

 

I’ll twist and turn

There’s nothing left to do

In time we’ll burn

Come back with different views

 

I’ve watched the sun go down

I’ve watched the sun go down

 

After it starts

We’ll never drift astray

With beating hearts

Transmitting sonar waves

 

No letting go

Our lives a tapestry

So hold me close

I need you hear with me

 

I’ve watched the sun go down

I’ve watched the sun go down

 

I’ve watched the sun go down

I’ve watched the sunset…

 

I once could see

Went blind but then moved on

Still I believe

Nobody’s ever gone

 

We all lose sight

Some drown inside the pain

You saved my life

And I owe you everything

 

I owe you everything

I owe you everything

 

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