Backwards First


My biggest fear in life is not the end
It's becoming an amnesiac
I'm looking at the past to comprehend
Maybe finding hope in little facts

Writing endless notes that I post on the walls
Reminds me of days, it's a haze in the fall
Always looking back there when it won't make sense at all

I've been heading backwards first
With every story unrehearsed
Submerged in thoughts that we can't leave behind

Pushing harder to confess
I've gotta let it off my chest
Before this weight lies heavy on my mind

Reliving all the better times gone past
We can't act like it's an accident
Worshipped every moment like a mass
While no matter how inaccurate

Taking every thought, tied in knots as they leave
Reminds me of sights and the life that we grieve
Now I'm looking back there in an effort to proceed

I've been heading backwards first
With every story unrehearsed
Submerged in thoughts that we can't leave behind

Pushing harder to confess
I've gotta let it off my chest
Before this weight lies heavy on my mind

But what's to find? Now what's to fear?
Can you tell me what the hell we're doing here?

If the past re-gifts the present
And the future isn't pleasant
What do we do?

I've been heading backwards first
With every story unrehearsed
Submerged in thoughts that we can't leave behind

Pushing harder to confess
I've gotta let it off my chest
Before this weight lies heavy on my mind

Before this weight lies heavy on my mind
I know the future's yet to be defined

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